I have not been abandoned, no I have not been.
Carroll High School has its ups and downs, but I have to say I appreciate block day Wednesday [this semester anyway].
I had ER, Homeroom, Activity Period, and Study Hall to read. I had some homework to do, but I got to read an entire book today. Yes, and it was by John Eldredge: Dare to Desire.
We’ll just throw some quotes out and I’ll respond AP English style.
“Don’t be fooled by the apparent innocence of the object you’ve chosen to fill your heart’s desire. We’ll make an idol out of any good thing.” [page 58]
And so I have.
I was concerned when I first picked up this book [at 10:00 this morning lol]. I thought it’d be about following your heart, pursuing your dreams to the point of utter devotion. As if following your heart was always equivelant to following Christ. Not always. There are still things called idols.
To follow up, “Addiction may seem like too strong a term to some of you. The woman who is serving so faithfully at church….your hobbies can be a nuisance sometimes, but to call any of this an addiction seems to stretch the word a bit too far. I have one simple response: give it up.” [pages 62-63]
And for that quote I am convinced God wanted me to read this book. I needed to let go. Not because all my desires are bad, but because they were in control. Now I’m dream-free [like I said] or at least not tied down to anything. Right now anyway, I don’t know where God’s leading me… but I’ll trust Him!
“God must take the heaven we create or it will become our hell.” [page 62]
And this is why I’m giving it to God. I don’t know what’s best for me. I pray amiss. It’s up to God.
And so here I am. Again, sounds awfully weird to say I’m hope-less and dream-less. Because I am full of HOPE [godly hope!] and though I have nothing to think about before I drift into sweet sweet sleep, I get by. Somewhere in my heart I know God’s planning something for me…. I just have to wait to see what that is.
And so we do no lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us a glory that far outweighs them all! [paraphrase, II Corinthians 3:?]
oh no You never let go,
Lauren
September 6, 2007