wake me when it’s springtime in heaven
“If you don’t go all the way with me, through thick and thin, you don’t deserve me. If your first concern is to look after yourself, you’ll never find yourself. But if you forget about yourself and look to me, you’ll find both yourself and me.” Matthew 10:38f
That very verse implies you know who’s you know who. Or, well, okay. That verse holds a lot of weight in my life, not just spiritually, but emotionally.
And that’s what I want to do I guess. Like, everyone says they’re obeying that verse… then once they actually DO obey it, they know they haven’t been. Make sense?
Finally I’m letting go. Finally I’m dreamless–an empty vessel. God, move me. Make me someone special.
I have no plans, no theories, no ambitions, no plan B or C, no goals, no ulterior motive, no nothing. Double negative, no NOTHING.
Which is good. Ha, okay, it may look bad from your perspective. I need goals. I need vision. Blahdy blah blah.
I have a direction I’m heading, but I have no commitment to it. I have things I’d like to do, but nothing major. God, I’m an empty vessel, I ask that you fill me.
Please.
September 4, 2007