An Introduction

I don’t know how to start this blog – I don’t have a witty anecdote. I guess I could say this: the other day Molly and I were having “WTF, Jesus?” moments around the same time. I went to the Williams’ prayer chapel and scrawled broken arguments to God. (I’m not sure what Molly did.)

I’m fine, really, I am. I am.
I started taking control of my life instead of letting God, and whenever I do that trouble follows. This isn’t to say God is punishing me; I just don’t know how to run my life as well as God. Amen, amen.
I want this to be a series, a four-parter: Grace, Faith, Redemption and Forgiveness. I can’t do blog series because I get so bored and distracted. I write what I wanna write when I wanna write it. But this I need to do for myself, and for God. This blog series is my spiritual act of worship.
Why these four topics? Well. That’s a good question.
In World Civ. we’re learning about the 7 Deadly Sins. After discussing Greed, I began thinking about which of these sins would be friends, had they the ability to form relationships. I came to the conclusion that Greed, Lust and Gluttony would be BFF.
I figured it like this: Gluttony has to do with hungry, about getting your fill. Greed is about desiring money and possessions and stuff. Lust is about hungering for another person, for them making you feel a certain way. They’re all about hunger – eros and what not.
If four virtues (are they virtues?) could be friends, it would obviously be Faith, Redemption, Forgiveness and Grace. And Love. Love would be in there somewhere. Maybe Hope too.
Anyway, Faith is about belief and loyalty – no matter what. And it takes Forgiveness to keep faith in someone or something that isn’t faithful back. And Redemption is like that never-ending process that underlies it all: you the faithful are redeemed while the unfaithful is redeemed, becoming the faithful, etc.
And Grace is the hug that brings us all together.
That doesn’t make much sense, I’m sure. I’m just finding correlations – it must be the economics student in me.
I’m processing life right now. Piece by piece by piece by piece. I know who I am. I am Lauren Deidra Sawyer. I am classy. A little quirky (no, Linds, not awkward). A writer. An avid reader. A music snob. A little sister.
But what do I do about you? I know who I am, but what do I do with you, Life? What do I do with you, Religion?
Thus: this series.
with love and squalor,
ezek.

December 5, 2009

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